Chapter 5 - Not More Than 12 o'clock

Warning: Whatever I write about, don’t try it at home. Never.

The totally new era begun when I started living alone. No parents, nobody. No more hiding. And I also started a band so I had different amplifiers at home ... Wait! The output of my DIY oscillator is a tone. Is this the same output as from any of those amps? And such an amp is much stronger, isn't it?

I guess you know what I did.

The only problem was I didn't know what could I use as an input to the amp. I tried my keyboard (piano-like, not a computer keyboard) and it was fun trying different instruments and how it felt. But that was not very practical - I didn't want to press keys or keep them pressed to orgasm. It didn't lead anywhere.

My computer! That was the solution. I downloaded a software that could produce different waveforms, shapes, frequencies, etc. The maths from my school was finally useful because I understood what it does. And I could go step by step closer to the signal that made me ... made me happy for hours, so to say.

Looking back I was lucky I was quite busy these days - university, occasional jobs, my band, pubs. Was it not the case, I would spend all my time sitting in a huge and wide sofa, dimly lit by my computer screen, with my legs on the armrests and very wide spread and cables leading ... well, down there.

(I'm not used to talk about it. It's the same with writing about it, I realise.)

OK. Dear reader, I know you want me to be more specific. Here we go.

Down there ... it meant one electrode inserted (yes, the tree cone shaped one, or the handle, which was narrower and I used it ... as an anal probe) ... so, one inserted and the second one ... I found out the best setup for me was when the current flew through my vulva, through my slit ... so the second one was positioned close to my clit. That was always tricky, I mean, making it right. It had to be round - sharp edges were painful ("the electricity concentrates there"). It had to be small enough to cause a strong sensation right at the spot - the bigger, the less sensation. But, the smaller it was, the closer to "the sharp edges problem" I was. And the biggest problem - fixing it at the right position, no matter how I move or what happens ... down there. You know, with increasing arousal lots of things change. And get wet.

That was the times when I found out what I like and what makes me orgasm. I mean, what can force me to orgasm.

Was the amp stronger? Yes, it was. And it helped me discover the problem with this electrophilia. I'm too cautious, I like myself, I mean I don't want to hurt myself. On the other hand, I want to feel stronger sensations. I want my body shake wildly from electric shocks. I want my brain to be unable to cope with such feelings. I want to be forced to orgasm hundred times a day - but I'm too cautious and I can't force myself to turn the intensity up so much.

The problem was visible with the amp I used. I could only turn the knob up to 12 o'clock, not a bit further. It was the first time I could really experience the stronger current - which is what turns me on - but I didn't.

Yet, I wanted to feel something new. Stronger? I didn't know.

TO BE CONTINUED